#Reflection: Of Pushing Yourself to Please Others and Forgetting who Cares for You

Let's start every day with a smile :)

Minsan sa sobrang gusto mo iplease ang tingin mo dapat iplease, nakalimutan mong may nasasaktan ka na pala. Hindi lahat makukuha to satisfying people because you have to... you dont need everybody in your life, you need people who will bring you closer to achieving your dreams. You need people who loved you from the very beginning not those who were there because they benefit from you or you are on top and they need to be on top. Hindi lahat gusto kang makitang masaya, hindi lahat gusto nasa tuktok ka, know who you affiliate yourself with.

I learned that I can never have everybody to side with me, may dadating, may aalis, may magmamarka sa buhay mo. I learned the more that you try to push yourself to satisfy people, nasasaktan mo na yung taong mahal ka even if you are at your lowest point. 

I had to learn the hard way this week, akala ko galit talaga sa akin yung taong walang ginawa kung hindi alagaan ako, it turns out, nasermunan ako pero the following day, ok na, all he wanted was the best for me. I was even scared to face him again because I don't know what to say, nagmukha akong walang utang na loob for that day, I dwell on the past when the present tells me that I don't have to mind what happened before, I make a new life every single day.

Para sa taong yun, I'm sorry and you know how much I love you. 
 

You don't live to please everybody, you need just to please God.  And if you have that kind of people in your life, yung inalagaan ka at whatever point you are, please keep them close to your heart. It's not just within your blood lines (Love you Papa and Mama) but those people who stays in your life, no matter how low or high you may think you are.

Turning 24 and Grateful

Posting this weeks in advance for my dreaded schedule might eat up the time even to blog.

I turn 24 on the 22nd of May, truth be told, the past 24 years of my life has came on a whirlwind but I do my best to make the most out of it, of course I do it for God's greater glory. I don't have the perfect life but the people around me has made it a blessed life.

I have extra supportive parents - to whom didn't stop loving me and who supported me from the very beginning until now that I am taking up the Master's Degree program in Information Technology. I never expected to actually be this way, I wanted to major in Political Science and take up Law but life brought me otherwise, don't get me wrong, I am grateful for what my degree brought me and what it has become. I love my dad and mom, with my entire thing that I am.

To the Constantino & Loyola relatives of distant connections - Thank you, kahit madalas ang peg ko e the nerdy one, I hope I did make justice to my peg.

To my MIT family: Sir Joseph Gonzales and Mam Kris Ericka Are who has extended so much support to the program and to us their students. To MIT Batch 2013 to which I spent my weekends with, I have never been too grateful.

To my batchmates on my college degree - BS Computer Science especially to the original proponents of Alumni Tracer, Karl, Luke and Aura, your trust that I can do it altogether is enough for me right now. Please let's see each other soon ;) I'm sorry to all those who made yaya na never kong nasamahan, babawi ako, hopefully.

I am grateful for Mr. Ace Lagman's trust in me, or should I say, Doc Ace. He inspired me to be better and to try to exude a bit confidence in what I do, thank you for always taking me out of my shell, making me improve and pushing me to be better.

To my FEU-EAC siblings: Jasper, Redvan, Elaine, Ian, Ivann, Angela, Sara and all the rest I will fail to mention, thank you for always reminding me how much I can be the best ate, if not the person you once looked up to. There are times in my life when I just needed a push, and you were there to give it all for me. Love you! :)

To Teh K, Lyber, Francis and Louise (my paks): My forever #friends, thanks for always trying to bring back my confidence, joining me on food and shopping trips.  To Ms. K, Alam mo na, salamat, love you teh! :D Sa tatlong sawa na sa pagiging nega ko, paks, Francis and Lyber - positivity na lang from this point forward.

To my FEU family, it's been the best home after graduation: To my FEU-Makati friends lead by Mam Cathy Catamora who never stopped believing in me, meron sigurong factor yung belief ninyo sa confidence ko sa sarili ko at present. I never look at life, the best way it was right now because you showed me how great I can be if I just believed. "Ang tiwala, binibigay at dinedevelop lang yan!" 

To my dearest Mr. Simon Ogbac and Ma'am Evelyn Ruth Manuel for always being there to push me to be better, to Simon who never stopped believing in the things I am supposed to do and to Ma'am whose knack is to protect and love me, I can never stop being grateful.

Lastly, to the person who has molded me for the past 5 years in all capacities: as my professor, mentor, adviser, best friend and tatay, Engr. Elmer Pineda, thank you for being my rock and for staying with me hanggang dulo kahit minsan I failed to satisfy you with the choices I made sa buhay ko. It has been my honor to have you in my life at andito lang ako lagi, always.

24 and still a long way to go, I am a work in progress, for whatever it has been, I am forever grateful.